Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Healing

I've started and re-started this post numerous times, always ending at the same spot where I don't know if I've said too much or if I'm clearly getting across what I want to say. So, I'm going to keep it simple. Within the last nine months, I've miscarried three times. It has been the most trying time in my life and definitely the most trying time in our marriage. Luckily, I have a husband that will hug me for as long as I need it and a three year old who has no idea how powerful his hugs and kisses are. It took this third loss for me to realize just how grateful I should be for what I have and not focus on what I don't have. It sounds like a simple enough thing to do yet some of us need reminders...
Healing. That's what I'm focusing on. I'm not sure I can define what 'healing' really means to me. I don't think I'll wake up one day, sit up in bed, and yell "I'm healed"! (I'm picturing one of those religious tv healers placing their hand on my forehead...). What I do know is that I'll be focusing on what really matters to me and what makes me happy. Here are a few of my favorite things (said in a sing-song voice).
My men camping out in our backyard. There's nothing like a man with his son.

The ladies. Can you beat fresh eggs and chicken personalities? I think not.

Enjoying an afternoon at the zoo - this was on the train. That little man's smile is a powerful thing.

Fresh, local and delicious. How can strawberries not make you happy?

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